It left me in too much shock to be depressed. The last time I felt that way about an event in which I was not personally involved was on 11 September 2001.
Perhaps I will be depressed about it later. That is, after living through the trauma I feel is coming over me.
It started, I now realize, when Donald got just a little too close to Hillary. That, in and of itself, was scary enough. But the expression on his face: Tell me it isn't that of a stalker!
That, and the way he paced around--and his body language and overall demeanor--practically spelled "abuser".
I know. I was having flashbacks. Everything gesture, every word of his, was a threat and would have been even if he hadn't thundered that he would put her in jail if he became President.
Abusers do that, a lot: They make threats. Just like Dominick threatened to destroy my life--and nearly did--after I told him I wanted no more to do with him. I'm sure that if he reads this, he will threaten me again. Or, perhaps, he won't even give me such a warning, and he will go ahead and do something to make my life hell. As it is, I have recurring health problems as a result of his abuse and harassment.
There was the e-mail in which he said that "living in a cardboard box will seem like paradise" unless I gave in to his demands. And the one in which he bragged that he could tell everyone that I had sex with my students, and with children, and "everyone will believe it and not you because they know your (sic) a pervert" and a "completely worthless human being" who "did nothing to make my life better"
Funny that he was calling me a worthless pervert, and claiming I did nothing to enhance his life--before, and after, he begged me to stay with him. And that he used to call me at all hours to complain about how people treated him, how they imputed all manner of sexual crimes to him, because of his sexuality--or, at least, the way they perceived it--after saying, the day before, that all I ever did "was listen" to him. "Big deal!" he exclaimed.
Then when I brought him to court, he said the threats he made were "just talk" and "only words". Hmm...How many abusers have said that? "I didn't mean it," he whined. But if he "didn't mean it", why did he? Why did he say or do those things? When I asked him that, he made more threats and claimed that I did worse, that other people did worse. When, in another incident, I called him on his racism, he sent an e-mail to a bunch of people saying that he saw the white robe and hood in my closet the last time he was in my apartment.
Well, all right, Donald at least said "I apologize" before saying Bill did worse things and Hillary has hate in her heart and started the very lie (about Obama's birthplace) he spent years propagating. That's more than Dominick ever did. But both of them did the something else abusers are always doing: blaming their own words and actions on the victim. It's a clever way for perpetrators to portray themselves as victims without seeming to.
In short, The Donald is a petty, vicious bully, just like most abusers. Just like Dominick.
Hey, Donald, thanks for the flashbacks. I'm going to send you the bill from my therapist. Oh, right: You're going to make me pay for it. Just like Dominick said I would pay.
I hear he's looking for a job. Do you need anybody to help you on your campaign? Oh, right: I caused him to be unemployed. He couldn't have said it any better.
At least all he wanted to be was a cop. Donald wants to be Abuser In Chief, I mean President.